Off My Game

 Where do I start? Three months, lots of money spent, made some really bad calls, survived Covid and I've never felt lonelier in my life. I don't like putting out negative thoughts and feelings and at this moment I don't want to hear that everything is going to work out, you're going to be just fine. How do they know? I am scared shitless and I only have myself and hopeful God who has been with me all this time, but I need Him now more than ever, but I don't know how to ask, how to pray for his grace and mercy. Do I deserve it? I feel cold and distant and angry at other people, but mostly at myself.

Only God can save me!

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