Living With Constant Uncertainty

 The clock is ticking and my emotions are all over the place. Am I really ready for another change? I've lived a very comfortable life here for the last seven years, even this year of Covid was tough on my mind and especially on my body, but it was still good. Now I'm going back to my own country, but I have no idea if it's a good decision or not. So many people have told me how bad things are at home right now. I'm over fifty, white and I haven't had a normal job in over twelve years. My biggest challenge is making it on my own. Can I succeed? If I don't, will I be able to ask for help? Being a super independent person makes that one of the most difficult aspects of my crazy life. I've been on my own for so long and I pride myself in being able to take care of my own life. God and me, always in this together. I have to trust that He didn't bring me all this way just to abandon me. I'm the one who needs to keep praying and trusting in Him. He is the way, He is the answer!

May He be with you too.

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