Helena of the Lake

  I lost a dear friend two weeks ago and I'm really struggling. Why her, God.......why? Why is cancer eating away at us, in so many different ways? Where is the miracle, and where is the cure? My only solace is that she is with her mom now. Lucy, my dear stubborn friend. I miss you so much! The world is a big mess and people are more isolated and lonely than ever before. What has happened to the human race? When did we stop caring about each other? When are we going to learn the lesson? I have so many questions, God! Making that lemonade.......it's hard at the moment.

Purpose  - the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. What is my purpose? Why am I here? I'm watching the birds from my window. It looks like they are just aimlessly flying around, not doing much, but I believe they know exactly why they have been put here on earth. Don't play small just because you feel you have to accommodate other people's needs and feelings. Speak up and share your experience, your thoughts and ideas. What are you waiting for?! Spread your wings and fly!

It's a real challenge to choose your heart over your pocket when the odds are stacked against you. We cannot change other people, but we can make a choice to change our circumstances. If we can't move the mountain, then we have to move the goal. Happiness and peace, that is the goal. I want to love my life, my work and I don't want to live in constant uncertainty. That I know for sure! I hope you are doing what gives you joy.

  When and how do we decide we've had enough? When do we choose peace over anger, discomfort and chaos? What do we need to sacrifice in order to get to that place? Just a few questions I have to answer for myself. Reading people isn't easy......working with them is even harder. We have a responsibility to each other to be patient, tolerant and understanding. Is that so difficult? We are here to learn, but most of all we are here to teach each other. Be kind, people!

  Today was another beautiful day given to us by God. I am so unbelievably grateful for everything He has given me. My life is a miracle and I only have God to thank for that. I am not deserving! Why are we here on earth? A student had an answer that really spoke to me. We all have more than one purpose on earth. I like that idea, but I've decided that we are here to help each other and to teach. Every day we have the chance to be an example, to help and to guide each other. Why is it so difficult just to reach out and give someone a hand? It feels really good to help and contribute, doesn't it? What is stopping you? Reach out and touch someone's life!

A blank page, a new start. Grace - a spontaneous gift from God to people. Generous, free and totally unexpected and undeserved. My life and especially the last eight months have been filled by His Grace. I am truly undeserving! At the same time, I'm also comforted by the assurance that He is always ever-present, guiding me and holding my hand as I navigate life. I am truly NOTHING without Him. How do we start again? How do we make a difference, how do we take the next step with purpose and intention?  I don't know yet, but I'm hoping that at the end of each day I'll be able to look back and at least tick off one or two things I did right. That's a start, right? I hope your pages will be filled with love and good intentions. Until tomorrow!

It's been four months since my last post. I'm still standing and I only have God to thank for that. He sustains me, He provides and as always He is my Savior. I'm undeserving and yet He is always there when I need Him the most. I don't have my own place yet, but I have a full-time job and I hope it's going to work out. In less than an hour I'm turning 58.....yes, 58! That number seems so unreal to me. What is your plan, God? By your Grace alone!